Level 20

saturday, june 12, 2010 - 7:00 p.m

for the last two to three hours ive been crying my eyes out, trying to wrap my head around what happened. i finally stopped because i guess i dont drink that much water so i dont really have anymore tears to let out. i dont know where my heads been at lately. but it feels like everything is just falling apart. i fell asleep for like thirty minutes an hour ago and i woke up and hoped that it was a dream..but it wasnt. like that song by John Mayer. and what do you do when the only person you want to talk to hates you. and in the future calls you the bitch that fucked him over. and that wouldnt be wrong. and you cant ask of them to understand because whats there to understand..you fucked up and you cant even explain yourself because you dont know how.

forget it..i cant write right now…the waterworks are back.

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