July 2011
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March 2011
1 post
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August 2010
1 post
“If you love and get hurt, love more. If you love more and hurt more, love even...”
– William Shakespeare (via 500daysofkissingmypillow) (via quote-book)
June 2010
1 post
Level 20
saturday, june 12, 2010 - 7:00 p.m
for the last two to three hours ive been crying my eyes out, trying to wrap my head around what happened. i finally stopped because i guess i dont drink that much water so i dont really have anymore tears to let out. i dont know where my heads been at lately. but it feels like everything is just falling apart. i fell asleep for like thirty minutes an hour ago...
April 2010
2 posts
Level 19
i just figured out why im getting my head all up in a whirl.
because for the last week ive been able to reconnect with old habits and people. ive been all wrapped up in my boy that i havent been putting time into my friends. i havent seen most of em in awhile and i feel like ive been missing out on important things.
so for the last few days i felt like ive been on this vacation that i didnt know...
Level 18
sunday, april 11, 2010 - 3:45 a.m
ive been thinking too much again. and all this thinking is making my mind go crazy. insecurities, confusion, and this need for something new.
thats all bad and dandy.
March 2010
1 post
Level 17
thursday, march 25, 2010 - 4:27 p.m
you’re there for me all the time. you keep me smiling when im sick. you lend me a shoulder, a hug, and a considerate thought when i cry. you keep my hopes up. you put up with my ever-changing mood swings. and you let me be mad and throw a fit when i need to. you sometimes even offer your arm up as a punching bag. and when i really irritate you on the...
January 2010
3 posts
Level 16
friday, january 22, 2010 - 10:22 p.m
This probably wont make sense…
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That feeling where your world just feels like it stopped and all of a sudden youve just been hit by a huge baseball bat and you’re flying about 5000 yards…and then you hit a...
Level 15
monday, january 18, 2010 - 11:50 p.m
mam and dad got into it again yesterday. theyre on the rocks…again. dad went to vegas & mam went on a shopping trip.
i dont think marriage is all that great.
& ive been moody.
Level 14
monday, january 18, 2010 - 11:09 p.m
Dear Self,
today you had about twenty different mood swings. and they didnt happen for any particular reason…they just happened out of nowhere…for no reason. because that happens to you. you can be completely fine & then extremely giddy & then you can completely flip out and get crazy & then you can get sad & then be fine...
December 2009
1 post
Level 13
saturday, december 12, 2009 - 1:03 a.m
i worry over little things. i have insecurities and i have doubts. i let things get to me and i bring myself down. i fill my head up with questions and i think up the worst possible answers. i get jealous over things that i have no business being jealous over. i get mad, frustrated, and irritated easily. these things make me feel crazy.
or maybe it’s...
October 2009
1 post
Level 12
snday, october 4, 2009 - 11:02 p.m
i got let down today…or i feel like i did. and i dont even know why.
i dont know whats been going on with me lately, but my trust issues have gotten way out of hand.
im constantly second-guessing myself and making up these excuses for why ive become so insecure.
ridiculous.
and no matter how much i say he’s different…it still always comes...
September 2009
1 post
Level 11
monday, september 28, 2009 - 9:54 p.m
my insecurities have hit the ceiling. and its all your fault.
every time i hear him say “i’m tired” or “i’ll call you back” all i can think about is you and how i never really trusted everything you said. and its ridiculous how insecure ive become. because the truth is ive been hurt alot and you were one of the...
June 2009
1 post
Level 10
sunday, june 28, 2009 - 8:48 p.m
So last week I got this one situation explained to me like this…
Two different parts make up this house. And behind this house, theres a wrecking ball, just waiting to destroy it. And im the wrecking ball.
Well maybe those weren’t the exact words, but its basically the same thing. And it still sounds pretty bad.
In the last few weeks ive fcked a lot of people...
May 2009
1 post
Level 9
monday, may 25, 2009 - 12:58 a.m
“I say I love you You say that’s kind You don’t wanna get too close You loved me crazy I lost my mind
You’re everything I never wanted And all the things I didn’t need
You don’t have to stay forever I’ll take passion over pride
Tomorrow we’ll pick up the pieces Try to mend our broken lives
And maybe I can learn to...
April 2009
2 posts
Level 8
thursday, april 16, 2009 - 7:54 p.m
Dear Papa Carl,
i saw your face today in a picture and i realized i havent talked to you in awhile. and i havent even taken the time to visit. ive just been so caught up in things that you wouldnt be proud of.
i remember when i used to talk to you all the time; every time i had a problem i would sit down and remember you and take a breath. and it would calm...
Level 7
monday, april 6, 2009 - 6:26 p.m
stop asking for my fucking help.
im not here to be your support system. and im not trying to spend my time with people that make me miserable.
all ive been hearing lately is “he did..?” “thats not right” “what happened?” “how are you?”
im fine. he moved out. stop asking.
“you have to be there for her”...
February 2009
6 posts
Level 6
monday, february 23, 2009 - 10:25 p.m
in my foolishness…
i dont know half the things im doing anymore.
and i dont need another reason to be set up for stupidity, if you get what im saying.
i get really jealous when it comes to certain things and people, and i dont know if you just want to hook-up or something else. all i know is that i dont want to be wasting my time and getting in...
Level 5
thursday, february 5, 2009 - 7:04 p.m
Now lately… ive been getting a little crazy and a little caught up in things i have no business being caught up in. my “id nevers” have turned into more of a “pass the mothafckin blunt” “take a shot with me” “got a cig?” and “when do you wanna drop?” im gonna die early at this rate. and not...
Level 4
tuesday, january 13, 2009 - 8:51 p.m
ive recently discovered what it means to be tired, weary, worn out. because im tired, ive got bags under my eyes, breakouts that dont stop, weight that keeps gaining. and ive got something to cry about. coming in here asking me if i want this. if i want to live in two separate households. if i want two separate families. what kind of question do you think your...
Level 3
wednesday, december 24, 2008 - 3:11 a.m
Truth is, as of right now, everything i do, im doing for myself. and im using every person thats told me i couldnt do it, every person thats chosen their drugs over me, every person thats chosen someone else, and every person thats ever let me down…as self motivation. because i have this idea that i need to prove everyone wrong, that everything they...
Level 2
sunday, december 7, 2008 - 12:44 a.m
im in one of my mellow moods, so im able to think straight for once. but i just want you to know that i hella appreciate everything you did for me…from taking the time to get to know me to taking the time to let me know how you feel. it meant/means alot. so thanks. and thanks for offering your friendship…even though i hella didnt deserve that. and...
Level 1
wednesday, december 3, 2008 - 4:15 p.m
I couldnt sleep last night because i went over your old messages and it kinda hurts still. Knowing and not knowing that you have someone else now. Someone else your putting to sleep, and someone else that you can see anytime you want. And im jealous of the fact that your out there learning so many things about her, like what her favorite color is, her...